Well summer is finally here! yay!! well i got three weeks off so...i really don't know what to do. I have started by sleeping really late and getting up really late not a good start since i got morning classes for the summer semester so i am going to try to go to bed early so i can get use to sleeping on time. 

Also i don't know if i should go buy new jeans or clothes??? what do you think??? maybe so shoes?? im still debating if i should get some converse or vans I'm not sure.  Dang... I almost forgot to say, I need to find a job to earn some cash. Hopefully I get one this summer. Cross your fingers that I find one. I do want to have some fun maybe I'll plan to go to Venice beach. I fell in love with that town when I went there my first time for a school project I was completely blown away. Venice is such a beautiful, laid back and comfortable looking place.

Well I don't know what else to write. Hope everyone has a great summer. 

And hopefully Robert Pattinson is having fun filming in New York, I sometimes wonder how cool it would be to be on the set of a movie and see how the movie progresses and see the actors bring the persona to their characters come to life. That would be so cool!!! but a girl can dream right. Hopefully I will get a chance to be on a real movie set one day and meet Mr.RP and  have a small chit chat. 

Well im off to relax and just watch time move past me...

adios!

distance thoughts...

Have you ever felt frustrated when people ask you about something you rather not talk about due to the trouble answers you have. Let me rewrite that, because you don't want to think about the troubling solutions to the question or that your worried that the answer you might have or the actually answer can cause a problem later on.

Also about when you think things might go well then get news that its getting worse not better. That you wish you had all the solutions but you don't. It hurts to find out the problem is getting worse.

It jus bothers me that, trying to get associates degree in graphic design then finding out that you might not be able to pay the monthly student payment or the worried solution of taking out another loan when you already under few loans already. Its just difficult to think about those things then think about the future, all the ifs you think up, what if i don't get a job, what if my life goals aren't met, what if.....

I tend to think all those ifs and scare myself thinking i might never succeed and have a nice well paying job and nice life ahead of me, but i have stopped to think like that and just start to think about now.

Since the economy is bad its even worse to try to think about how you'll be able to succeed the next few months when people are getting hours taken away at their jobs. And especially for me that i never had a job, trying to get one to learn and to have experience and also help out with the family but no dice. Nobody hires unless you have few years of experience. To tell you im a decent person but I will work hard and try my best to be a very hard worker and employee. But I truly  feel strong and hopefully get a job soon!

Spotlight

A dim light is seen  through these dark glasses

this dim light of many wonders but so much darkness

the light starts to brighten, now is this it? no.

bright & focused is this light i see, this light is my spotlight.

the spotlight of my responsibilities, hopes, wishes, dreams & goals.

Darkness is not the enemy but my ally that i need to fill up with light

The light will slowly but surely creep up on the darkness

the only darkness that will be left at the end will be the darkness of my ray bans.

Theory # ... Wake me up...

Just a simple thought...

Wake me up when its tomorrow

when the warm embrace spreads throughout the horizon.

as the sun makes everything so vivid & alive

Wake me up when its the new day

as the new motions and ideas strike

the way a simple person wishes to have 

a non bombarded day with complete serenity

Wake me up when its the new light

the simple beauty of the vivid day

makes more of a relief than an anxiety

Wake me up when its tomorrow

Listening to: Kiss the Rain-Yiruma

Never Think-Rob Pattinson

A Falling Through -Ray LaMontagne

Angels on the Moon-Thriving Ivory

Day Old Blues-Kings Of Leon

Once upon the dark forests of Forks.....

 well i was riding the bus one day on my way to school when i started to write this little dialogue it was going to used to be in a contest. It was for New Moon. Well i started to write just like that it took me few minutes. Tell me what you think.

Note:( the I had a weird dream is the beginning)

I had a weird dream last night….

 

I was in a forest, a very green but dark forest.  I started to walk, looking for a path, I heard someone yell out my name. I turned around and saw someone coming; to my surprise it was Jacob Black.

Jacob stopped few feet away from me and asked “ what are you doing out here”

Me: “Um…. I don’t know,” I said

 “I was looking for you, what is your explanation for being out here? Jacob asked

Me:” an explanation for what? I replied

Jacob, “well you are out here alone, so…. You got to have a reason to be out here… he mentioned

Me: to be out here?? I asked

Jacob: So…what’s your explanation, you got to have a reason to be here in New Moon”

Me: “What? To be in New Moon…” I replied

Jacob: “Oh c’mon, you must have hit your head hard, explain yourself” he smirked

I start to think he must be talking bout the movie contest.

I start to explain…

Me: “ well, I want to see how the book turns to reality, to feel the atmosphere on the set of the movie, to see the actors bring the characters to life and to experience the process of the movie.

Then Jacob grinned,” see you” he said and took off running

Then I woke up

“Was it all a dream?”………..I don’t think so…

 

Note: I made this up, i swear. 

time to go back to the books...

well I got two days left before I go back to school... wow the week went fast can't believe it. hopefully this new quarter isn't going to make me have panic attacks. At least I took a break to relax and not worry. 

the morning of frustration

arh! im here at 2am almost 3am tryin to do some hw for tomorrows afternoon class. Why can't time be little bit slower?? I noticed that lately days tend to fly, is this the quick change of the world??? well i don't wanna go to class tomorrow, would someone take my place?? hehe jk

Quick question: Have you ever wondered if you meet lets say robert pattinson, (note not a few second meet more like um..bumpin into him on the street then go chit chat) What might you realize about him that you can't see by photos and interviews?